Tapestry Dance - Five

They're out to get me. Ha ha ha.

There are people who are referred to as Targeted Individuals in the world, and I have been one of them. Here is where I choose to be careful, because I have reached a point where respect for a notion I call anti-past serves to defend me. I will not refer to sources of influence who are no longer able to influence people, nor will I refer directly to bodies of interest or other participants in my life-story.

I do not expect anyone who feels they do not experience what I am writing about to make sense of any of this, so it remains that I know I am writing for those who find themselves in a role in my experience, or a similar one. I am told that participants in similar experiences number in the hundreds of millions, so it is not as if I am limiting my audience.

Targets are victims or survivors of a social crime, in which bodies of people engage in a collection of behaviors in order to sabotage the life and reputation of the individual. Perpetrators organize with various online and cellular communication methods which may include private blogs, text-messaging networks, MMORGs, CD's and USB drives and other secret-able communication methods. There are also groups who have used Psychotronic technology developed for various Special Forces, which happen to have become purchasable by private interests and criminal organizations, as with any other kind of weaponry. Participants become motivated either by threats or incentives, and sometimes by fraudulent claims of a noble-cause, or assertions of a crime to be exposed and prosecuted. A careful design in juxtaposing bodies of influence ensures that there is something for everybody, which can be manipulated by shrewd strategists in order to achieve economic or political aims on a massive scale.

It is not my intention to comment on Targeted Individuals beyond the need of it. It serves as a context for a discussion of telepathy, and its relation to Angelic community, and is otherwise of little interest to me. It remains that the use of Psychotronic technology has served to achieve a certain level of entrainment among those who were not familiar with the experience and nuances of telepathy; and so I am more interested in guiding people's adaptation to the experience of telepathy itself, as well as it's influence on the community as a whole.

The experience I have endured has been reflected in dreams I have had since my youth; so here I will begin primarily referring to myself, not out of arrogance, but in the intention to focus on the individual within a role in telepathic awareness which is social. After leaving a relationship, people in my social-environment began acting strangely, gossiping about my private life, even my thoughts, and gathering in behaviours which told me of things to come: What if suddenly what was hidden is revealed? I'd had a previous experience which medicine defined as psychosis, but which I had conquered over a period of years in a way which is now not worth attempting to describe in detail. It is enough to say that I anticipated influences which would arrive to make things difficult for everyone, myself included.

Some people are aggressive, and some people are passive. Some people are passive-aggressive. What peril would ensue when passive personalities suddenly became overwhelmed by aggressive personalities? I decided then to engage in a dangerous and delicate practice of satirical speech-making, intending to draw out people who might tend to hide in their shell, and open people to assertiveness; especially within the domains of sexuality and aggression. I felt this necessary because I was already painfully aware of the tactile and emotional range of telepathy, and I knew it would be beneficial to toughen people so they would be better prepared to defend themselves and each other. The frustration of this was that I remained a distorted focus: I was entertaining to people, but none of them would allow themselves to become caught up in the story of my life for the amusement or derision of others. I claimed at the time to be looking for a publishing agent, ready as I felt at the time for a thesis on the subject. The joke became that everyone was transcribing my words and engaging in debate in order to create a crowd-sourced publication or a cell-phone movie of the story of my life, in order to justify "researching" the dirty-laundry of everyone I had ever known or even spoken to briefly. Participants appeared unselfconscious about the burden such a bulk of material would present to any self-respecting editor. Meanwhile, the most frightening influences became all too familiar to me, while catching everyone else completely off-guard. So began two years as a fugitive of a witch-hunt.

In passing through several cities, I chose to cultivate professional allegiances of various kinds - policing, soldiery, universities and entertainment among them - owing to the insult and risk which the growing conspiracy presented to their professional integrity in each case. The differences among places was sufficient to sustain a difference in social responses among all of them, which both complicated and contributed to my defence. The ways in which I defended myself and everyone generally pertained to matters of professional integrity, economics, innovation, adaptability and community. To the extent which I was a focus of attention, I cultivated what influence I could find in a process of debate. In times of exhaustion, I feel as if my survival may have been nothing more than blind luck.

The behaviours of people were seeded and guided through several paths juxtaposed with each other, depending upon what cultures they were either attracted to or fearful of. One difficulty I discovered the hard way was that the organizational structures of professional groups had been infiltrated and sabotaged by those who began the conspiracy. People who claimed they were my defenders became stymied in protecting any relief from various mechanisms of abandonment. I became able to identify a "ladder" as one of the organizing structures, designed and doomed to fail, visibly frustrating the participants. Network-marketing hasn't taught us anything useful about conspiracies. I once quipped that no conspiracy of any immensity could possibly succeed, because people have so little ability to co-operate as it is. The best that people could achieve was a balance among populations, without allowing a threat to themselves by any direct initiative of an individual. It took a long time to identify what stifled people, and it wouldn't serve anything to identify anyone directly here. I acted on the basis of preferring contracts to litigation, generally seeking to restore civility and reduce or eliminate any need for such interference in my future or those I perhaps naively considered blameless for being trapped as much as I was.

The flow of events has fizzled in my story, and I gain the most from keeping it that way. However, there are many people who might benefit from what little I have to say about the experience of being targeted. Telepathy is for the most part transparent to law, but it is possible to record testimony in an audited manner. The way of this is for a group of officers who participate in telepathic discussion to become transcribed in signed testimony, under supervision of an auditing body.

Targeting conspiracies are becoming professionally dissolved by policing authorities, and I feel I must limit my commentary on their activities and strategies. However, I feel compelled to comment simply on social organization in general. Every participant of every grass-roots social organization must be personally familiar with all of their members and leadership during the pursuit of any social action. I have seen too much of irresponsible leadership and organization and I am still catching my breath in the satisfaction of having forestalled a massacre. Here is my basic response to anyone considering inclusion in a conspiracy: Just don't go there.